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Thursday, March 19, 2009 Y 12:27 AM Okay! Just came back from meeting syg. He came down to Yishun at 10pm. Met with me, Boby, Hakim, Ashvin & their friends. Stay at Northpoint for so long sia. Boring. By 12am, everyone left lor. They just sent me home & now taking cab home.(: Anyway, Woke up at 5.30am then quickly bathe & head to syg's house by 6.50am. Damn sleepy. Wanted to go for e first slot for English but instead, took e second slot. HEHE! (: Only had Suat Khoon, Wyndee, Zeng Yi, Ping Hoe & i. Ended at 12pm sia. At 2plus then went to eat & then to TPY with Nurul & Azizah. Saw Mercy! MISSED HER! Ouh ya, syg also went to TPY luh. SAD!!! :( Tomorrow going to fetch him from school:)
Tuesday, March 17, 2009 Y 7:42 PM WEEEEEEE~!! morning got to disturb that BIRTHDAY GIRL yo. & HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to ALVIN! :) Once nunu came, i gave e biggest hug & sang her a song. Hope she's happy today. :) Woah, had a headache today yo, slept awhile in class, ibu & kakak try to take my pen but didn't know i was awake di. :) FUNNY! Finish lesson around 10:15am Then rushed to interchange with Kakak & my daughter. Herlina was so kind enough to accompany me go Boon Keng there to meet syg. Actually, cause she has nothing to do. Wanted to buy cake for Nurul but then syg only finish school at 12plus 1. Lucky have kakak. Stupid 2 groups of guys outside syg's school keep disturbing us. Then we walked to KFC to eat. Bodoh sia, don't know why got this secondary school BOYS (see how i emphasize those guys as boys) kept disturbing us. Lame, damn seriously childish! (: heheh. By 12pm syg finished school di & coming to find us but we were too full di. So decided to walk, manage to walk e way they always walk. Pandai sia aku. (: Headed to syg's house with Farhann & him while kakak go back school find Fatin. YEAH!!!! I LOVE MUHAMMAD KHIDIR!!! Chipmunk babysit me today again:) Thanks sitter. Tomorrow mostly can't meet syg. He has to go meet his mum. But morning will do:) Y 12:46 AM HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NURUL AMANINA!! She's my lovely BFF, silly billy her. :) My ibu too:) I love her so much, & she's always there for me. I'll be there for you too luh. HAHA! Well, older one more year. Wiser too:) Study hard for your O level aye. Actually, tmr herlina suppose to bring cake luh. But she went MIA leh. So so sorry!:( You are dead tmr morning!:) SYG! : i didn't mean for all these to happen. You are e best boyfriend i ever had. I love you no matter what happen. You are someone that is hard to find. I'll never move on with my life without you, i swear to GOD. BUT IF i actually did, my life will be damn miserable, cause i di make this vow. So don't ever leave me. I need you in my life. It's also difficult to forget you, bby. What can i do to make you believe me. Yes, to be frank to you, i'm in e wrong & i'm very sad & hurt. But there are reasons behind those things i did. Syg, think out of e box. You hurt me so deeply, yet i did forgive you. I told you that i can't forget right, but i did force myself to forget about it & so it's happening. Can you trust me? Do i mean something to you? Do you really want me in your life? Do you need me, truthly? Please don't change! I want how we used to be:( I LOVE YOU! I NEED YOU! PLEASE!:(
Monday, March 16, 2009 Y 9:58 PM It's holiday now. Wee~ but only one week & have to go school everyday still, for normal lessons. ITE peeps good lor, get to rest for 3weeks. They surely gonna have a lot of fun. Wonder what he'll be doing that whole 3weeks, what will his plans be? Okay! In school, had chemistry & math lessons. Chemistry, we went to e lab. Kak Lina wasn't here, didn't have lab partner. :( So Janine did with me. FUN! SWEEEET! Math, at least Ibu Nunu was there with me. She went to view that girl's blog. NUNU: She's a slut. Act cute only. Like trying to have sex. With that squeaky voice. I know we're bad luh but then she sort of said me before. Indirectly luh. Almost spoil my relationship, okay!:( sigh. Things are getting worse now. I don't know why, but things are changing now. I just got this bad feeling. I'm very confuse now. I just can't stop thinking about it, my tears can't be held back. No matter, whatever things we still do as normal, the feelings between us are different. It isn't there. Not e part where my feelings are fading for him luh. I still do love him as before. Does he still love me as before? Why is it that when there is only him & i, e atmosphere seems so down. He never smile, never seems happy. But once the others came, he was just smiling away. At least he did spoke to them. But nothing to me. I'm not thinking too much, it really did happened & i'm feeling very hurt. How am i suppose to say this to you? From yesterday, every single things i saw & hear are just so different. Don't you care for how i feel? Please go school can. You promise not to skip school anymore. Why is it that things are so shaky for both of us? If later we talk on e phone, confirm nothing much to talk about one. Sometimes, i really do envy those other couples. But i also love e way you treat me, well-at times. I'm sorry. I'm never good for you, never right for you. I love you, syg. Please show me that we still are e same as last time. We still can carry on. I really need you, don't ever leave me. Baby, what did i actually did wrong. Please tell me e truth. Don't just end it this way.
Y 1:12 AM the video that syg took, are in Fi2's site!:)
Morning, waited for syg to call me. I don't know what time to meet. Finally at 12 plus, he called me. Then about 3pm, waited for syg at Yishun Station. Cause he went to meet Kimseng first & he scare that later my area will rain heavily, which was true, & don't want me to get caught in e rain. Thanks sweetheart, I love you k. Hmm, then we took 855 to Vivo. Syg's brother can't go sia. Their mum don't allow, poor thing sia. Syg said he was very sad. Reached there about 5pm. Then went to 3rd level there. Got quite a lot of ppl. Syg met his friend there. Then Saw ppl shuffle. Hmmm, STYLE! Didn't get to see AzrieSPARKS though. Anyway, syg took 2 video of those ppl shuffle. Well, it was getting boring. So we left. Wanted to go watch movie. But while on our way, in e bus, to TPY, suddenly decided to eat at Newton Circus. Spent around 30bucks. HEHE!:) Then we took a train back home. Today was nice. Only e two of us. Everytime like this also good:) Syg, do you feel so? I hope so. Well, just went i thought everything was going smoothly. Then i made him sad sia. I hate myself luh. I really didn't meant it. It was e past. As in, because i was sad of what had happen between both of us. I got scolded from you, you were so angry with me & i thought you didn't care about me. I really don't want that to happen, baby. It was silly of me to even do so. Sorry. Please don't sad di. Don't hate me k. Forgive me can? I really love you. You are my everything, & only one:) I love you very much. Ps; SORRY!!!:(
Sunday, March 15, 2009 Y 11:36 PM                              Actually wanted to post yesterday pictures last night, once i reach home. But was too tired. Even to bathe & talk on e phone with syg. Well, morning woke up at 7.45am to wash e toilet luh. Then left home at 9.30am to syg's house. Took 72 while reading my magazine, i missed my stop. HAHA! Silly me. Had to walk back to syg's block then. Reached there about 10. Syg still sleepy luh, but every time i come, he cannot sleep di. Funny luh him. But in e end both slept, till 12 plus. Before Farhann & his cousin, Acap, came. Ate near syg's house. Then went to yck station meet e others. Headed down to Cityhall. Baby accompany me to Shokudo awhile, talk to them. As usual, Daniel bully me again luh. Ouh ya, Huili no more working there, Lige leaving for China di & Cindy and Sihui working at Hereen one. Went to Peninsula. He bought a pants!:) I saw Ahmad, oi! Haha, he saw my boyfriend first. Also don't know how he know my guy look like how. Hmmm. Then walked to Suntec. The others all walk so slow. While heading to Suntec, there was a sudden silence between us. Then i started to feel how lucky i was to actually have him & him/ I by each other side. :) Well, we can actually be together for 2 months plus, & can tell that we'll be together forever. I don't really know how to put it in words but just can feel it. It's like we were meant to be together? I wonder what he feels. Anyway, went to arcade. He gave me play this game with him. HAHA! Damn funny luh. I don't even know how to play. But had fun with syg luh:) . Saw AzrieSPARKS while leaving Suntec. Then all of us went to buy KFC & went to e fountain there to eat. Too a lot of pictures! Went to Chijmes to watch soccer. Manchester United vs Liverpool. Syg support Liverpool though. So, i'm on his side:) Woah, score was 1-4! Syg & Dom were like so damn happy. Kept laughing & smiling & disturbing e others. HAHA! If he could every time be jubilant, like how he is with e match, i'll always be happy. Everyone took 851 back from Bugis. Walked home with Farhann & Afiq:). By then, was sleepy di. Chat with baby less than 5mins? that what he said. (PICTURES HAVE BEEN UPLOADED - to Fi2's Site) Ps;Baby I really do love you, okay. Saturday, March 14, 2009 Y 12:04 AM Malay Lesson Friday, March 13, 2009 Y 11:10 PM     Jeng3~ today is Friday 13 again! HAHA! HAPPY Friday 13 to my BRO, Suresh BANANA!:) YEA! Next week holiday di but only one week some more everyday must go back for classes though. Got back my report slip. F9- English, D7- Chinese, B3- Math (another 8 marks, can get A1 sia), B4- Science(Physic pulled me down), A1- Humanities, B3- Poa (another 3 marks get A2). Gonna strive much better next time. I hope. Today got back Physic test paper, got 26/30. & my retest i passed no need anymore retest. SWEET! During math lesson, e guys started learning Malay! & Chongmeng, Kinnear & stanley damn drama. Look like monkey. Haha. Damn, cute. Got a video but then don't know why damn soft & it isn't in vertical direction. Sorry. After school went to meet (KAK)zizah, then while at hub i saw Maxine, Zaki & his friend. So chat with damn awhile before taking 130 to find syg. We took 857 to yishun. Went to LJS to eat with farhann. Saw Sidd before heading to Yishun Safra. Missed him man. At 4.30pm went back to GV there. Syg & i watch "Coming Soon". Freaking scary can. I was damn scare luh. E movie haven't even started, i di like can't breathe but didn't tell him. HEHE:P I kept covering my ears & a lil gap for my eyes. After e show, syg kept scaring me. He so bad luh. Tomorrow going to meet him again:) with e others of course. SIGH, how i wish can could really get back all my money from those people & that my daddy can find another job again. I really don't know who to talk to. Syg confirm nag at me. But what am i suppose to do sia. It's complicated, hard to say it to him. Ps; Saya Sayang Dia
Y 10:19 PM On e 09march, Monday, i didn't have school. E-learning day for my school. Woke up at 7am then headed to syg's house. Did some career thing & English & also slept at his house till 2 plus. Went to market them. On e 10march, Tuesday, had no math remedial. Syg fetch me from school. Went to Yishun watch movie with syg:) We watch push. Sad sia, he like sick always leh. I'm really worry for him. What more can i do for him? i want to take care of him. But we can't always be together. 11march, Wednesday. Woke up 5.45am just to go syg's house. Reached there around 6.40am. Talk a lil' before we both sleep till 7.45am. He sent me to school after school as he going to school only at 12pm. Today PE was tiring man. Preparing for our NAFA test. So had to run 6 round around e field. Hmm, only stop for awhile at my last round. COOL! Felt damn nice. As usually, first few to finish. Mr Chia say my running style/skill very good, very nice. HAHA! Don't really know what he trying to say but happy luh. Hmm, then had netball training till 5pm. Coach didn't come. Had games with netball style:), half & full court games. Then went to yck meet with Farhann, Boby & Afiq. Waited for syg come then eat. At evening, went to Khatib find that guy as Dhevan told me he saw him. Those two girls freaking IRRITATING! They only know how to act big. Please luh, if you really did lie or put words in other people's mouth just say e truth can. Who is e coward one? Can you guys at least grow up? I'm not going to give that guy face anymore. By hook or by crook, i want him to return what he owes me by end of this month. Freaking LIAR! Was damn pissed, felt like crying, felt like punching something. Just wanted to get out of there. Walk away from syg, though i know he kept calling me but i'm sorry i can't take it. Just understand me. Then he was damn angry with me & broke up with me. So i went to find Maxine, i just can stop crying. Then syg came after me, talk to me & waited for Max. She was sweet enough to talk to him for me. Then everything was okay after that. Sprain my wrist & ankle luh:( Ps; Baby, i'm thinking for our future:)
Sunday, March 8, 2009 Y 8:15 PM            7march; Met Chipmunk & waited for syg. Again he was babysitting me. Where he gets 5bucks an hour. But don't know who's giving him. HAHA! We headed to bugis, saw Froggie in e train. Ate at e food court then headed to e national library. It was raining luh. Called syg to cover his head with e hoodie but he don't want to listen. Told him he will be sick later & i don't want that to happen. I'll be sad. Chipmunk's cousin came. So nice of them to accompany me to study. Then met up with Ashvin & Bobby. Saw Elroy. Then trained to Aljunied. Aiyoh, then this is e part when syg scolded me sia :( . I was just feeling warm & i didn't want to wear my cardigan. Like this feel very uncomfortable what. He say to his friend as if i really want to give ppl see only. He said me till like i'm a slut or what. Really hurts. I just pushed him away. & then he insisted on sending me home now. I just stood there & cried. He grabbed me until very painful. Keep saying me, fine, i just wear back e jacket. He held my hand & then we walked while i kept crying. The others were waiting for us. I don't really know that place well, just followed him wherever he went. I also don't know why we were even doing there. Nothing di, he talked to me very nicely di. He said some sweet things:). But i was still feeling hurt & sad just don't feel like saying anything or smiling. Syg, Bobby, Chipmunk, Bear, Hakim, Afiq, Acap & i took bus 13 to east coast there cause Chipmunk family's bbq. Don't know who birthday. Forgot what he say to me di. haha! Something just felt weird before we were in e bus. Syg suddenly at a flu & after giving me a peck, he say my mouth taste better. Then i felt his face. GOSH! He's really sick. Having high FEVER sia. Sigh! I was damn sad di then i heard from bobby that syg's mum told bobby that he was di sick & having a fever in e morning di. & no one even told me:( . & i was sad there syg, don't even one to go sick doctor. I know his don't want to waste his parents money nor he wants them to worry for him. I just him to see e doctor i will pay for his bill one. I don't mind. I just want him to be well. Please, i don't want to see you sick again. It was like all e guys are not feeling well luh. Alamak. I don't know what they did sia. Some threw up, having headache & stuffs. They all went to e toilet so long luh, they lied to me nothing happen, but at last syg told me e truth. Then late di, i need to go home. Took a cab from there. First sent Hakim to Bedok, then syg to Amk, Bobby to Yck & i to yishun:) At least now syg is feeling better. We aren't meet tmr though. Gonna miss him!!:) Ps; We'll surely married, i promise:) Y 7:58 PM 6march; Had 3 test today yo! Boring. First test was Physic. I didn't even studied for it. OMG! Then had Chinese test. I seriously don't know how to do. Don't even understand what they are talking about. By recess time, i di studying for my retest for Physic. & at Chemistry lesson, i was talking on e phone with BBY. & yea, he made m cried again. He really want to fight sia. Why can't he just listened to me? Talked to me on e phone till so fierce. Like don't even feel like talking to me. Sigh. From we hanging up e phone, i was in e situation where everyone gets worried. Stanley kept pleasing me to tell him what happen, the others keep asking me to smile. But i just say nothing & that i was just listening to teacher recap on e topic. Well, thought had netball today, found out that every friday don't have. & on one of e Saturday, we having a friendly match. So after everything, i headed to syg's house. Chipmunk was there too. All e way was sad luh but didn't let syg know. Cause i know how much he wants to find that guy. & no matter what, if i say you can't go, he will comfirm get angry with me. What am i suppose to do. He don't even will listen to me at all. What am i to him? So we left his house went to market where he waited for the others. We bought food di want to eat, then Momo called. Nothing much know, till the way he talk to her. To them, it's nothing much. But he just don't know how it really feels. If he only treats friends nicely, then i rather being friend with him. In that way, he won't hurt me every again & he will really know how to treasure me & love me. Damn~ it's long that i was crying. We broke up for that short period. I just can't control my tears, finally we got back together di & i just stop crying. I just get my tears out anymore. Anyway, after bobby & ashvin came, Farhann & i went home changed. Suppose to meet syg then we go to east coast. But they weren't done yet. So went with them. Farhann had to babysit me! HAHA! Well, chat with him a lot. All of my sad feelings just said out. That's felt much better. Then went back with all of them. We took a cab. Ps; I love you! Please hurt me no more.
Y 7:38 PM 5march; Syg had me worried for e whole day! :( Can't contact him at all. Never even reply my messages, his handphone can't get through, house phone no one answer. Bobby called me telling me that he didn't go school & poor bobby got into problem. So freaking ass those ppl. Feel bad for him. Anyway, syg was sick again. sigh! :( So i skipped my Chinese extra lesson just to see him. How i wish i could really take care of him, always by his side. I really want to stay with him luh. Missing him every single time. Then we headed to yck. Meet with Bobby & Hakim. Syg don't want to go home early today. Ashvin, Wan, Jon, Shaun, 2guys & 1 girl came. Then we went to fitness corner there. They played soccer at there so long. Finally everyone sat down. Then they talk about stupid stuffs. Want to go find trouble with this person luh. Syg should know how much i don't like about him being involve in this type of situations. But yea, i know, Bobby is your friend. But which would you want to listen to. Then by night, Syg sent me home. Saw Zul. Then afterwards we went home di. Everything settled, he listened to me. ps; I love you bby!
Y 7:23 PM 4march; this date was XingyiSIS aka zengyiBRO 's Birthday day yo!! He had e most horrible birthday cause everyone disturb him about his small eyes, being a duck, & the way he talks. hahah! But Mr Lee CY had us singing happy birthday to him. Anyway, after school, didn't have Chinese remedial & Judy & i manage to skip netball again. HAHA! Then we quickly went to AMK Hub, where we waited till syg's school end. Though of fetching him from school then head to Khatib find her & her boyfriend, Zaki. Well, he ended school early, so i head to khatib myself. Ouh man, I miss her so damn much! Both not happy about one small kid luh! That girl thinks she who sia. After Zaki's friends left, syg & bobby then reach. Met them at mac where they had something to do. In then, Max & Zaki went to bishan while we headed back to yishun find e others. Then to Dom's condo. Around 8, i was hungry so we went to 123 makan & then headed home. Hmm, was sad luh. He told me he didn't message any girl at all & he was so sure & swear about it. But just nice, i saw his sent item where he sent a message to this girl. The way he message her like very sweet only. I don't mind him messaging girls, though- of course i'll be feeling jealous luh, but he still needs his own life. Anyway, once i showed him e message i found out, his reaction was just like - ouhh, okay. Ya i got sent message to her. So?- At e point of time, i didn't know what to say. What does this actually shows? Ps; Why must i always get hurt? Do you love me like last time?
Tuesday, March 3, 2009 Y 9:41 PM HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HUIYI!!!!!! My lovely BFF of Sec3'07. Be happy always, All e best know. Last long with Jason aye! I LOVE YOU! tmr is ZengYi sis birthday!!! :) Today had 2 test. Tmr have 1 test. To Elmo & Chubs! Don't always sad leh. I worry for you two know. PLEASE TAKE CARE!!! After school, syg fetched me then we went to market eat. Then went his house to sleep. Both sleepy luh! Jason Tan called me, shocked sia. Then i saw Feeqah at bus stop of AMK ITE there. Ps; I LOVE YOU BABE!
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It's 1 march'09 di!!! HAPPY 2nd MONTH to us syg! I LOVE YOU! Woke up at 5 then headed to yck station. waited with Jon & Shaun for the others. Late di yo! First thing i saw syg, i was damn happy. He is e one that i love a lot & that we can last till e 2 months & more. :) Then they had their match at Sentosa. Damn hot sia! Sigh, irritating sia e sun. I got serious sunburn! Sigh, sorry syg. Not that our 2nd month suck luh. Is just that i really thought it wasn't important to you. Don't even know you remember if that day was our second month not, till i say it to you. Then after you guys finished showering, you say go home & e first thing that come into my mind that you really meant it. Cause i can tell that you are very tired after your game. Sorry that i walked away from you at e market there. I didn't mean to. I was just damn sad that our 2nd month wasn't that happy. You should know how important that day meant for me. Things had changed between both of us & i can tell. You never get angry with me & you just burst it out today. I kept crying & saying sorry to you but you just ignored that. I want to hold you, hug you but you don't allow me. I'm really scare now luh. You may say that you won't leave me but no one ever knows. Sorry about at night while we were heading back home. Sorry that i cried again. Is just that i thought you really changed! But e fact that he was sick in the end. Sigh, i really don't know how to take care of you & your heart. Sorry babe. Can we stop having this conversation anymore. Don't ever treat me differently again, please. I want you badly in my life!!! :) I LOVE YOU! I'll live my whole life with you, & only you. Ouh yea, Gerard-FROGGIE thanks for e dedication to Syg & i. Appreciated it a lot, though was a lil' embarrass about us not keep on fighting. HAHA! & that songs was nice! syg used to sing to me luh siol!!:) Ps; Ku Cinta Dia
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