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Saturday, February 28, 2009 Y 12:16 AM I don't understand in life. Why must there be so many rumors & lies! Why is it that things happen on me mostly. I didn't know he was really really a big freaking jerk till i heard it from someone today. Whatever things that i didn't do, was said as i did it. Whatever things that he did, was said as he didn't do. Why must things be so complicated too. I just don't get it. It was stupid of me to even love them. Now that i've sort of moved on, those things are still bothering me. Those things are still happening around me, surrounding around me! And it SUCKS!!!! Sigh, now my own bestie is also helping him di. No, wrong, he had always been on that freaking jerk side. Now they also don't need me di. Don't even bother to text me & everything. After that fight with that BITCH at e park, things had changed. Never that close di. What more can i do. Everything that isn't my fault, turns out to be mine. I do have feelings, i'm not stubborn. It really do hurt badly. :(
Thursday, February 26, 2009 Y 9:54 PM WEEEE~ have been having camp lately. So damn fun yo!! espically with all e Sec5s together. Yesterday was about motivation talk for studies & today is about career. Hmm, had fun with ibu mostly cause she siting beside me. Anyway, after school went to fetch syg from school. Took 130 to his school then jon brought me in to find him. Saw Halif. Bloody hell, that boy think you who sia. You owe me $366 bucks & i have e right to report you to e police when i di gave you a lot of chance. & his gf is like so damn two-faced since last time ar. Anyhow put words into my mouth. Still small kids luh. Grow up can? Having been having a lot of conflict with syg lately luh. Sigh. I hope i still can trust me. But one thing is he will always be in my life. I hope he won't hate me now, cause he has changed lately:( . Recently he got scold me di lor. Can he still understand & stand me for who i am? hehehe. Btw, Nunu-ibu thanks for always being there for me aye. I LOVE YOU, bestie!! You too don't sad di. TMR is last day of camp, sorry ppl i'm not going. But ibuNUNU remember help me take know:P Ps; Syg, I Love You! I Won't Leave You!
Tuesday, February 24, 2009 Y 10:43 PM How i really wish that he could really keep his promises & not lie to me anymore. I really hope that this time i could really really trust him. Had a real big quarrel on Monday. Sigh. I just can't hold back my tears, i'm sorry. I don't wish that you will see my tears again but if you want to make friends with her, i don't mind. Don't need to go e extent that you didn't even contact her & that she called you for no reason? He threw his phone though, heart pain sia. Anyway, I'm so grateful that he did told me e truth in the end, at night. Yea, it's hurtful to hear that he lied again but at least he got tell me. That's all i need from you, baby! I promise you that i'll never leave you, i also don't want to luh. & i'll promise that i'll try to forget all those time that you hurt me badly, okay? Anyway, our 2nd month coming di. Happy luh siol! Truthfully speaking, he's e longest! (: Going to sentosa on that day, cause morning he got match! Tmr having our level camp di. Lazy go school, but still will go. After school then fetch him. Wish that he will always go school, no skipping school or classes!! :)
Monday, February 23, 2009 Y 11:08 PM      On e Saturday, 21Feb'09. Morning met with Syg at YCK at 11.30am. But i was so dumb enough to even forget which stop i'm suppose to alight & alighted at AMK. STUPID RIGHT? Nunu laugh at me & say i must blog this! Damnn~ that IBU. haha. After that, syg & i went to Mac Drive-In to meet up with nunu. Then we studied for awhile till that Clown, Halif, came. In the end, both Syg & Halif, from hating each other year1 & 2, becoming friendly friends. hahaha! hmm, then Azrie (Herlina's Daddy) came. Then we all headed to amk station to meet up with Hamimah & Suzie ar. Then went to Marina bay, Marina Barrage. It was quite nice though but still boring. Quite romantic luh. Chubs came too. Then all walked to Esplanade there. Sat awhile, took pictures & then by 6pm Nurul, Chubs, Syg & i left. Chubs went to Sembawang with Syg & i. Met with Bobby & Elmo. Elmo was in a bad bad mood & walked off. Poor ChubsSWEETY! :( Chubs left by 9.30pm. Sorry can't send you back know. ILY, SWEET! Walk around with Syg & his ITE friends. Stupid jungle thing. Creeps me out so damn much luh! haha. Then syg & i left di. Suppose to be his mum sent me back. Luck never. What a relief. (SYG: not i don't want hor. i wasn't prepare to meet her & beside i'm very shy & i wasn't dress properly luh.) Hmm, took a long route bus to my block there. Sat at e bus stop for ages, talking about e past. The first time we met!:) Then by 1plus am he left. Well, actually we weren't in good terms on that day. Both were sad at times. Especially, Syg. i'm sorry. I promise that i won't leave him. I say to him that we shouldn't meet too often, what if we were to break up one day? how are we suppose to survie without one another. Well, i was wrong to say that. We will never be separated! I promise, I swear! :) Ps; Ku Cinta Dia! :) I Love You! :) Y 10:49 PM      hmm, found out at syukri is syg's cousin sia!! (: Hmm, learnt something from Herlina. haha! " Tiffany always go to MKH!" && MKH- Muhammad Khidir's house. cause she wants to go to IMH! Anyway, on e Friday, 20feb'09. Straight after school, had to rush to syg's house. In the end he also never go for prayer. Make me rush only, how bad. Then left his house quite late before heading to PHS, he need to collect his certificate & testimonial. Then reached yishun at 4pm. I was pissed, because i don't like to go out so late one luh. Habit di luh. Moreover, i know my parents don't like luh. Anyway, syg waited for me outside my house for an hour, for me to bathe & get ready. Well, that day was my day luh. Like not in e mood to go out & to dress up. So ya. Afterwards, went to Plaza Sing. Accompany him to go find job. Hope he really gets e job. Then to Cathay & sort of waited for Bobby & Jasmine. Headed to Skate park, meet up with Gerard, Gabriel & Joel. While waiting for them to finish playing, i was listening to music. Sigh. All e memories just got into mind. Sorry syg. But i'm trying to forget it. I really do love you & trust you but it does hurt. PS; AbgIDE broke up with his gf di sia & he got sack from work. Sigh. I wonder how is he. IDK what to do sia. :( Ps; I'll always remember you, stay by your side! He's my BBY BOY! Wednesday, February 18, 2009 Y 10:26 PM  Today no netball or extra lesson. Syg didn't go school today :( Then he came to fetch me. Nurul came school today siol! Lina didn't come school! Stanley wants to divorce me & want to abondan his wife & daughter! hahaha! Damn drama in class! Hmm, anyway, after school, nunu met up with zizah & i went off to yishun with syg. then we went to BK to study & eat. Afterwards went to dominic's condo to chill..... (: with their ite friends & of course with Chipmunk & Hakim luh!:) Went back at 9plus. anyway, i'm planning to work & to join back dance. Good idea?? hehehe. Ps; I'm missing my LIFE but yet I need him!
Y 9:50 PM  Monday, 16feb'09; had our new schedule for our extra lessons! BORING! Nunu got 2 days MC sia. Hope she's alright ); During VE, went to hall for some Total Defence ceremony talk. Then went back to Stanley to syg's house... (: Afterwards, went to YCK to eat. Then syg went to yishun with me. We went to Bottle Tree Park. Romantic okay :). Talked a lot. He said he like at that moment, like when we first time met. Then he took cab home. Tuesday, 17feb'09; Nothing much today. Assembly had drama. About Total Defence again. HAHA! T-E-R-R-O-R-I-E-S! Cute song okay(: All e Sec5 got to leave first. Weeeeee~ Went to Math remedial alone. Nurul not in school, Herlina not feeling well & went home first. But lucky still got Stanley. After remedial, everyone left. Waited for syg. [Sayang luh! Don't let me go his school there wait for him. sigh~ at least i wasted 45mins plus of e journey ma.]Then auntie had to lock e door, so went down to canteen find Elmo & Rahmat. Then went to opposite school, chill. Elmo was sad again, after i say that he got gf di never tell me. What's wrong with him sia? Anyway, Elmo is with Chubs! LAST LONG AYE! Love you guys lots. Waited for syg from 3.45 to 7.30. But i don't mind. Just felt bad that he rush down to find me ): Am i actually a good gf to him? Am i understanding him enough? Ps;Waiting for e up coming 2nd month! Ku Cinta Dia Monday, February 16, 2009 Y 3:13 AM Firstly, today went for a jog at 10.40am. Then waited for Syg to wake up. Around 3pm he then woke up. He say he only can meet me at night. So nevermind lor. Faster finish with my computer stuffs & go out to study. Suddenly felt a bored studying alone, so i called Khafiq to accompany study under his block till 8pm, waiting for Syg to come. Left the home at 6pm. Then Syg call, saying he can meet me at di. So took my time & waited for him at Khatib station. Then went to study under block with Kitty & Wan. At 9plus pm, packed up & went to find Syg's friend, Joel. Sat at Orchid Park Condo till 11pm. Then Syg & i took a cab back. Cause he was suppose to go home at 10pm. As he mum called him. I was damn shock seeing his mum calling my phone. :O Now i've finally finish blogging & uploading e pictures. So to Chipmunk, Froggie & rest that wants e pictures. They are under e link "Fi2's Site - PHOTOGRAPHY!" on e right hand corner. Sorry for waiting. :P Got to go sleep now. I miss Syg di!
Ps; I'm missing you every second! Y 1:25 AM VALENTINE'S DAY with Muhammad Khidir Bin Tahir! & Happy Birthday to KimSeng- Orang Utan! Started off waking up at 11. Hmm, Syg & Chipmunk hardly even slept sia:( Anyway, Farhann had to send his lil' sis to school, so met them at bus stop. Then he passed e Hearts, Bear & Brownie to me & Khidir. && Syg, gave a CARE BEAR & a BRACELET!(: I LOVE IT, okay! Then we are off to meet LaimiSWEET at Khatib station. Cute luh, she & him. Then Syg & i went to 810 e park there to wait for Chipmunk. We talk a lot about e fight we had last time, but then we are still okay. HAHA!(: After Chipmunk came, we took bus down YCK then a train to Cityhall. Waited for KimSeng & the others. We then went to CityLink jalan2. Hehe! Had a lousy secret communication with Farhann, in the end Khidir also know. :P I was telling him that i felt bad that i didn't buy anything for Syg & that what should i buy. HAHA! Tried to get away from Syg, then so did Farhann. Bought him a Reef Slipper & a RipCurl Shirt. I was damn scare it wasn't nice & he don't like it man. It took us about half an hour to find e gift. By surprise, i bought Chipmunk a Reef Slipper too. :) Then we two headed off to find Syg, KimSeng, Jon, Wan, Shaun & another two, who idk. & then went to Marina sq. They ate mac. We saw Ima & her family. I LOVE HER! Syg & i then went to walk2 by ourselves, thought of watching movie but like nothing nice. So in the end i went to eat at food court, then after that go find Chipmunk at Somerset. While heading down e escalator, this two Caucasian salespeople, who were promoting some beauty product, approached us. Ask our age & she was like shock ar. HAHA! FI2 looks mature seh! Then say that Syg & i very matching & stuffs luh:) HAPPY LUH! But funny too. Reached Skate park there. Khidir went to skate with Farhann, Gerard & Joel. Damn bored. So took many silly pictures!! Syg joined in too. Around 10plus, we all went home. Syg & Chipmunk sent me home, we ate Ice-cream! Then Syg stayed over at Froggie's house. Had A Great Time Today With My Lovely Syg! Ps; Thanks for having you with me this V-day. Waiting for our next month.
Y 12:20 AM ONE WHOLE NIGHT OF HARD WORK, CAN! :) Proud of my Chipmunk luh:)      LEARNING form his teacher-HAMSTER! :P  HEYYO bloggy & of course ppl. (: sorry didn't blog. Starting off from 13Feb09, Friday! HAPPY FRIDAY 13, to my FRIDAY 13 BRO, SURESH! IMY!:) Had our Physic test, just know that i felt sleepy after doing. Anyway, last night i was waiting for his call, so i decided to message him first. & he actually was scare to call me. Hahha! Hmm, then after e call, we are back to normal di. I really need him in my life, beside my BESTIES (YES LUH! ESPECIALLY my clique of Malay girls!) I LOVE YOU, alright! :) Back to today, had English, we thought we will have our delicious cake. So Pamela took out e candles & switch off all e lights. SADLY, no cake sia. Having cake on Monday, cause she doesn't have e time to buy it. & so, most of my class ppl order mac delivery. HAHA! Damn cute, can. Then Chinese lesson, StanleyHUBBY & i kept writing stupid, lame valentine day questions & messages. I was damn sarcastic to him. :P Anyway, through out e whole day, we kept having candle light lesson! :) Chemistry test was easy, yo! As everyone ask each other for answer! & yeah, syg fetching me from school. He didn't go school today, naughty him & then yanWIFEY wants to meet me too. So both fetched me! :) Honoured seh. Got valentine present from CherieSWEET! OMG! Nurul, was damn sick still. SIGH! Please be better soon! :( PPL! One happy news! Zizah, Nas, Nunu, Lina, Nit & I are all okay di, I think. PLEASE tell me e truth ppl. I'm loving you guys like hell k. Don't feel sad, hurt by what had happen between you guys, alright? After all, we are still best friends, aye. Am i smart or am i smart. Heehee. Quickly ran out to find Syg & Wife. Sorry guys for making you wait. Then went to syg's block lepak awhile till wife's friends come. CHIPMUNK was damn sad when i went up Syg's house, .....!:) Chipmunk cheer up. While waiting for bus going home, Syg's parents saw us at bus stop. Felt so malu sia. hehe! Then at night, Chipmunk & Syg came under my block. Stayed till 1 plus. Helping & accompanying Chipmunk with his valentine present for his laimin. How sweet & nice of him. & so, Khidir stayed over Farhann's house. Oh ya, RussellBRO's friend wants to be my Valentine sia. DOTS-.- Ps; BABY I LOVE YOU! HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! Thursday, February 12, 2009 Y 9:50 PM .jpg)         I've not mood for anything. Well, i guess that's e end of us then. Is it? Blames are pushed to me, happiness are for others & nothing for me. I'm officially dead! But still have to face everything, living in this world. Friends have all changed, all moved on... NunuBESTIE message me in e morning, telling me she isn't coming to school, she's sick. Babe, please take care of yourself aye. I do care, no matter what happen, i'll just support your decision. I've no right to say anything. I just want everything to me alright. I don't want them to think anyhow, when actually it isn't e truth. Just want to say sorry ppl, especially to zizah, lina, nit & nas, & also those that felt hurt or victims. I know you guys are feeling hurt too. Anyway, i know it's gonna be a bad day. Slept late thinking about things. Homework not done, not prepare for chemistry test. Left home feeling wrong in everything. Feeling sorry. Feeling everyone hates me. Reached e station, thought i won't see anyone of e other side. Wasn't aware till i look up. HE, Chipmunk, was just in front of me. When i looked into his eyes, i kept feeling the pain, the hatred & e anger he's having. Maybe it's just me or maybe i'm just right. He then turn & walk away. Waiting for e train to stop, while tears slowly rolling down. I felt that piercing feeling in my heart, hardly breathing. The whole journey to school had memories stuck with it. My present wasn't with me. ): I felt to quiet during school time. But lucky, those guys were there for me. Especially, StanleyDEAR, ChongMengBESTIE, TuoFengSANZHU & ZengYiSIS. They did cheered me up sitting with them. :) The whole day passed damn fast, last period 20 of us had to go for VE at I-space. While our VP was watching. :O Lesson was talking about "What are e emotions you will have after your loved ones passed away?" Don't know why but Janine & i kept feeling that Mr. Lim kept looking at me while talking like he's only communicating with me, creepy. Straight after school, suppose to go to amk ITE find bob, yan & man. But bob was sweet enough to come to my school to fetch me unexpectedly. How nice of him! (: Took 853 to Khatib. Lepak awhile, by 3.3opm he left to meet up with shag & addah. (something like this) Went to yishun interchange to meet with man & headed to 159, waited for yan. Thought wan was coming but he didn't tell us & went to meet bear go sheesha. What a nice friend huh. SEE! Everyone are moving on, everyone has changed! Barely going lepak with my khatib friends, anymore :( Dad kena retrenched not long too:( Not close to my school friends after school, that's my life & now idk if we both are still together not. Will things turn out right? Will he eventually understand me. I hope Khidir did go school together. & i guess he had fun today, going swimming with his friends. Ps; I still love you truly! Must things be this way? I remembered one last thing you promised me... when we really broke up, you will try your best to get me back no matter what. Will you still do that? NANA DARLING KU! IMY. Wednesday, February 11, 2009 Y 11:08 PM                                BLOODY HELL! What's wrong with you guys? Don't you guys know how hurt we are? I didn't know that i wasn't your friend at all. We are not clowns for you guys to use. Why is it that we must entertain you guys? & please why can't i stand up for my rights & her rights too? What BUSYBODY sia. Don't be childish can. Not happy with me just come straight to my face alright. I wasn't even involve in anyway, neither are her junoirs. What have you guys become too? Pushing all e blame to us? Making us feel sad, getting hurt & crying over you guys? Look through e mirror what do you guys see? You guys don't mind losing us as friends huh? No such friends do this to their best friends. Stop pointer blame at others. She is hurt enough, 4 against 1? That isn't fair! Moreover, we have our own problems too. DARLING! YOUR JUNIORS & I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU! HAMIMAH TOO!! (: take care aye. I love you! :) CARPARK LUH SIOL! Ps; I miss your kisses, bby. ku cinta dia |
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